I feel a little out of control recently.
And because I a little (ha!) type A, it drives me a bit crazy.
When we decided to move forward with the IUI idea, I remember saying literally “lets give it a shot”. Maybe all our systems need is a bit of a push forward to make this happen. Maybe they need more than that, but it seemed worth a chance or two. I spent quite a bit of time debating though – if it doesn’t work, its money taken away from our IVF fund, its time taken from work.
Dh’s job search had yielded a few prospects, but nothing that turned out to be the right kind of opportunity. Then, a few weeks ago (right when we were discussing and planning the IUI), he got a call from a contract company looking for someone to work in research and development, something he’s very interested in. Unfortunately for us, the company is located out of Florida, and they want us to move there (it’s a temporary contract that I think they want to make permanent). I am not ready to move (we just finished the floors and fence darn it!) For the time being though, he will be traveling back and forth – to Florida on weekdays and home on weekends. It kinda gives everyone a chance to feel this out, but we are kinda taking things week by week.
They are both going to be an interesting experiment. I have no idea what to expect from this fertility treatment because it’s our first. I always hated living by myself when I was single, but I keep busy so that should help. Things are suddenly so different. Plus:
Today was my first shot.
You vs. me Mr injection pen
As with anything new I was a little nervous but it turned out to be really rather anticlimactic. I spent more time trying to get the darn Follist.im container out of the plastic than I did giving myself the actual injection. (Sometimes I think they make those packages
child adult proof). It stung bit afterwards but otherwise didn’t hurt at all. I have one more tomorrow and a follicle check on Tuesday.
One of the things that drives me the craziest about infertility is how little control I have over any of it, besides taking my medicines on time and showing up to scheduled appointments. I have no control over how well the medicine works or how my body responds. Same with DH’s job. (though the unknown is more annoying to me than a lack of control). The fact is, I have no idea whether any of it is going to work out at all.
We’re just gonna give it a shot, literally and figuratively, and hope for the best.
July 8, 2012 at 5:17 pm
It’s always tough when folks want you to move for a job. It can have results that range from miraculous to terrifying. Cara and I have had both good and bad results from this kind of thing. Although it’s tough to be apart, it’s really smart to be careful about things. It’ll suck for a while, but in the end you’ll be glad you handled things this way. 🙂
July 8, 2012 at 5:49 pm
Yeah we thought we would feel it out. I don’t really want to move but if it turns out to be a dream job maybe… For now at least it will help!
July 8, 2012 at 7:07 pm
Good luck hon! It’s not always an easy road, but stick with it (pun intended! *wink*) and hopefully things will work out!! 🙂
July 8, 2012 at 8:37 pm
Yay! I am so hopeful for you, lady! I’ll be praying for you and hubs!
July 8, 2012 at 9:42 pm
Hey–that picture of your pen looks so familiar. I’ve got one sitting on my table right now. Good luck to you.
July 8, 2012 at 9:45 pm
gotta love it, right? Right back at ya!
July 9, 2012 at 4:15 am
It can be scary moving to a new place, with everything unfamiliar. It’s a good thing you feel it out like this. It took me eight months to follow my husband moving country, it was a hassle, lots of travelling but in the end it worked out fine. And who knows, this cycle might work out as well for you, maybe that would make the decision easier to go or stay put. God job with the shot 🙂
July 9, 2012 at 1:02 pm
I do all my own injections too so h stick with it! My husband bless him, is a weeny when it comes to shots.
July 9, 2012 at 2:37 pm
Needles don’t really bother me, thankfully!
July 9, 2012 at 9:48 pm
So excited to hear your husband got a job–even if it’s not ideal. I know how hard the unemployment road is. The long-distance thing doesn’t sound a whole lot better, but maybe it’ll turn out to be a good thing.
Good luck with the rest of the injections and the upcoming appointments! Fingers crossed!
July 10, 2012 at 9:37 pm
we are surviving so far (2 days in lol). Thanks for the luck!
July 10, 2012 at 1:38 am
Sorry that I’m so far behind on your news 😦 I hate that out-of-control feeling too… so little that we can actually do about getting our BFP 😦 Thinking of you for this cycle and hoping it’s the one :)) xoxo
July 10, 2012 at 9:02 pm
no apology necessary!!