Journey To the Finish Line

PR's, 4 children, hopes and dreams; I'm always running after something


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I’d Rather Use a Fork to Eat

Life throws lots of curveballs.

Fortunately, this is a positive one.

Bryan and I had discussed and agreed to get more information on the Barbados IVF. I had just faxed a record release yesterday asking our local clinic to sent our records to Barbados so we could have our phone consult and decide for sure when we wanted to try to go. All the while, he has diligently been taking his hormones prescribed by his endocrinologist, but after 4 less than fabulous SA’s – I didn’t expect this one to go any better, and honestly, I don’t think Bryan did either.

His sperm count is normal.

Yeah, you read that right, NORMAL.

36 million with 70% motility.

Holy crap.


After months of “IVF is your only option”, I’m not even sure what to do with myself. Don’t get me wrong, I am excited, but I am also tired of waiting. It seems absolutely silly to jump into IVF right now, but I think I still need a deadline. I unfortunately tend to fall into the more realistic pessimistic category, thinking still of my PCOS ovaries, my blocked tube, and the ever elusive “unexplained infertility”.

In this case, too much knowledge and the start of yet another new cycle has killed my ability to be positive or excited at this point.

So we’re at yet another fork in the road. Do we keep trying naturally for awhile? Do we try an IUI? At this point I feel more like “put a fork in me, I’m done”.

I think I’ll just use the fork to eat some pie. Maybe a whole one.

9 million friends (and hopefully still counting)

Some good news today.

Last SA results:5.6 million sperm. 40% motility, 80% ABnormal

Today’s: 9.4 million sperm.20% motility. >70% normal.

It’s not a huge jump, but its something. Bryan said the endocrinologist told him he’s seen couples get pregnant with 9 million sperm. So I’m cautiously optimistic. Don’t get me wrong: an increase is positive. But here’s why I’m not jumping up and down yet:

The last visit we had with the fertility doc, he told us that functionally speaking, a difference of 5 million sperm and 10 million sperm is about the same when it comes to conception. In order for us to “qualify” for (i.e. be worth the money) an IUI, he recommends at least 20 million. So, even for that we’d need double where we are now.

He also said that he isn’t sure, since Bryan’s hormone levels are “low normal”, if adding more of the same hormones would make a huge difference, but he couldn’t say without seeing the numbers. So at this moment in time we’re still looking at IVF if we want a baby, but I’m definitely going to hold onto the endocrinologist mentioning he’s seen couples with 9 million sperm get pregnant on their own before. We sent the results to our fertility doc, and he gets more bloodwork done next visit to the VA, so we’ll see.

For anyone who is about the yell at me for being a “Debbie Downer”. I’m really not, I’m just trying to find a balance between being hopeful and being realistic. That, I’ve found, is not easy.

I’ve basically resigned myself to accepting that we are probably going to need IVF to have children, and am trying to prepare as if that’s the case. How I feel about this kinda varies depending on the day….but that’s a whole new post….however I will totally accept any magic baby or money fairies who would like to appear in front of me………………no? Drat.

At that, I leave you with this:

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