Yeah, so that whole day by day thing I did last week? So not gonna happen. I like how that format died after all of one week. All of the dates are running together at this point and up until yesterday I think I’ve been writing 5/25 on my frozen breast milk for the last 3 days. One day I’ll look back on that stash of 5/25 milk and wonder what kind of milk production steroids I was on that day.
All in all week two of the babies’ lives has gone pretty well. Babies have started eating more frequently and have periods where they are both more alert . I have been more emotional lately, getting upset over small things and then feeling stupid about it. I’ll admit that for 2-3 days I felt really overwhelmed by all the breast feeding involved in twins mostly because I was feeling guilty about allowing them to have bottles. I felt on edge about them gaining weight because they had continued to lose a few ounces the first week – even while knowing that is all normal and having the doc reassure me we were doing great. There has been some guilt too surrounding feeling overwhelmed at all and I know that comes from our infertility history – knowing that others out there would trade for my overwhelmed feelings in a heartbeat. It is a strange and difficult place to be in sometimes – and a topic for another post I plan on later.
Our list of interesting firsts that happened at some point or another in the last week:
- We made our first non-medical outing which included lunch at Atlanta Bread Company. This was also my first public nursing experience. I ordered soup. (duh. Feeding a baby while trying to eat soup? Don’t do it). It was also the first time I was shat on. And I’m not talking a little bit, I’m talking mustard like poo ALL OVER my black pants. I have Miss Princess Abigail to thank for that one.
- Babies had their two week check up and both are 5 oz over birth weight! YAY! (Proving my guilt and worry over weight gain were totally unfounded – not surprisingly)
- I failed to follow my own advice and keep burp cloth handy while I pump. After pumping a bit I left a trail of milk in my wake as I searched frantically for one. Bryan laughed. I swore.
- You wouldn’t believe the number of times I get asked if they are identical. Dude. It is a BOY and a GIRL. They can’t be identical.
- The mother of the year award nomination was probably taken away this week after I accidentally wrote on Miles’ eyelid with the pen I was using to track feeds. At least the pen mark was a manly blue color.
- While we were out yesterday (I only remember this date because it was yesterday) we decided to try giving Miles a bottle of cold breast milk just to see if he would take it and save us the step of warming it. He responded by drinking a few sips – making us think he was cool with it (no pun intended) – then promptly spit it out like a fountain.
Some pictures of the cute:
This Week By the Numbers:
- Number of people who asked if the twins were identical: 3
- Number of times I wanted to ask these people if they were serious when asking that question even after already knowing it was a boy and a girl: 3
- Number of poop-splosions: 5
- Number of pounds lost: 36
- Pounds left to lose: 8
- Number of mommy semi breakdowns: 4-5
May 28, 2013 at 9:33 pm
I love your updates ❤ Glad to see that everything is going well and the babies are gaining weight! I've been a bit apprehensive about breast feeding, I totally WANT do it but when I talk to all of my friends who have babies, none of them lasted long (with the exception of one who is still doing it after 11 months) but the fact that you have two and seem to be doing well is inspiring because that'll be me in a couple of months! Also, Miles and Abigail are adorable. ❤
May 28, 2013 at 9:36 pm
I’ve told myself I’m gonna take it one week at a time though I’d really like to make it to 6 months. I’ve been lucky they are good latchers and feeders in general. And that my cow boobs produce enough to allow others to feed them bottles sometimes so my boobs can have a break!
And thanks 🙂
May 29, 2013 at 7:53 am
Obviously as I get ready for egg collection 2.0 I would absolutely trade for feeling overwhelmed and having a complete family. That said, I am loving following your updates and grateful for the support that you continue to give me. I am sorry that you’ve been emotional this week. Everyone gets emotional when they have new babies. Twins must magnify that tenfold. Just know that you are doing an amazing job whilst still cheering others on. I think you’re pretty freaking awesome. X
May 29, 2013 at 8:13 am
You are doing awesome lady!!! All those hormones + feelings from infertility history + adjusting to two new babies equals the perfect set up for many emotional struggles. You are totally normal and it’s expected to have those breakdowns. You are doing awesome on all areas and Miles and Ms. Abby are so lucky to have you!!!
May 29, 2013 at 11:21 am
Praying for you as I read between the lines a bit. I have the advantage of seeing what Kristen has gone through for the past 6 weeks and know that you are going through the same thing in duplicate. Hang in there – it gets better. They are both adorable!!!!
May 30, 2013 at 1:23 am
Love the updates, too! Don’t feel guilty about how you’re feeling! Having a newborn seems very hard, I can’t even imagine two!! xox
May 30, 2013 at 4:35 pm
That is too funny 🙂 I’m one half of a set of boy/girl twins and I’m asked ALL THE TIME if we are identical. 🙂 You’re doing amazing and great job with the feedings!! I can’t imagine trying to juggle two at once. I feel like I’m a constant milk machine and I’m only dealing with one. You’re a star and your babies are adorable! You deserve a great big high five, my dear 🙂
May 30, 2013 at 5:33 pm
May 31, 2013 at 3:52 pm
I felt so overwhelmed after the boys were born and shed innumerable former-infertile guilt tears. It’s a different kind of anxiety/exhaustion. Try not to compare. It seems like you’re doing so great, but if you ever don’t do great, that will be okay too. Your babies are beautiful.