Way before I had any idea what infertility even was, I remember asking, or overhearing pregnant women being asked: do you want a boy or a girl?
Some stated preferences, but most replied “I just want a healthy baby”.
My naive brain couldn’t wrap my head around this. How could you not have a preference? Haven’t you been thinking about playing with your little dream boy or girl? Hair bows and tea parties. Soccer games and super heros.
I’ve been calmer this week. I’ve let my guard down a little. But today, a little more than 24 hours before our first ultrasound, I totally get it. My imagination hasn’t really been gender specific. While I’d be lying if I said that the thought of twins didn’t overwhelm me a little – all I want is appropriate growth and heartbeat(s). We will figure out the rest.
I just want a healthy baby. Or two, if that’s what’s in the cards.
Journey To the Finish Line 
October 3, 2012 at 10:55 am
I want that for you too. Good luck at your u/s tomorrow! Hoping there is the most beautiful beat of a heart…or hearts.
October 3, 2012 at 10:56 am
I’m not gonna lie, I really wanted a little boy. Ok, well, I really wanted twins because they actually do run in my family, and if I ended up with boy/girl, yay we’re done! But I was leaning towards boys since it’s my understanding that hubs is the last shot at carrying on the family name. No pressure, right? But, the longer we’ve been at this and the fact that we had only one embryo to transfer, I’m simply rooting for healthy baby, boy or girl! Here’s to your healthy one or TWO. 🙂
October 3, 2012 at 11:01 am
Oh yeah for awhile I preferred a girl. It’s just not as important now that we’ve been through all this. I totally get it!
October 3, 2012 at 11:17 am
I’m sure it will be great! I can’t wait to hear if it’s one or two little heart beats in there!
October 3, 2012 at 11:52 am
Can’t wait to hear about the ultrasound! My betas were like yours and we had 2 sacs at the beginning!
October 3, 2012 at 12:25 pm
Good luck!!
October 3, 2012 at 12:25 pm
I dont care what gender. I hope you get healthy baby(s)
For myself I used to have a preference, now I dont really care. I just want to get pregnant with a healthy baby in whatever flavor it comes.
October 3, 2012 at 12:43 pm
Ditto!
October 3, 2012 at 12:52 pm
Good wishes for a healthy pregnancy and healthy babies …
My gut feeling says there is one of each in there. 🙂
October 3, 2012 at 1:52 pm
Yes, I had a gzillion little things I used to worry about or want before my foray into this dark universe. Now, all I want is a healthy child. The rest is so utterly irrelevant. I really hope and pray that this is the time for you to get that healthy baby (or 2)!!
October 3, 2012 at 8:16 pm
Going thru infertility makes you just want to have a healthy baby at any cost!!! I would run in Times Square naked if it meant having a healthy baby
October 3, 2012 at 8:25 pm
haha me too!!
October 3, 2012 at 8:18 pm
Can’t wait to hear how the ultrasound goes tomorrow. Thinking of you and hoping for at least one perfect little heartbeat!
October 4, 2012 at 12:37 pm
I get it because I’m still asked “if treatments work and you finally get pregnant, do you want a boy or a girl?” it’s never been about the sex of the child. At this point all I’ve ever wanted was a child, there was never a preference to what kind of child, just a child. I’ll let the parents and inlaws wish for stuff like gender. Good luck with your ultrasound!!
October 4, 2012 at 4:04 pm
Do post an update soon. for the u/s.. Hoping everything is super aweome..