Patience is a virtue…….that I do not possess.

And I HATE being told to be patient. Which I suppose is the first sign that I am impatient.

I’ll defend my “patience” to the end, of course. Though in my defense (see, here I go already), I’ve always known I wanted kids. I started really getting that feeling somewhere in 2008, but was just not in a situation to make that happen. When I met Bryan and finally felt really confident that this was the guy I wanted to build a family with, I was really ready.

So I consider the fact that I’ve made it through 2008- now with most of half of my sanity intact to be super patient.

How does a person just become more patient anyway? Is there a how to book I can read?Β  Can I just buy it at the store next to the peanut butter? Oh! Or better yet, if it game in a bottle of Pino Grigio! (I’d personally prefer Reisling, but that doesn’t start with a P). Is there a 12 step program I can become a part of?* Or a support group?

HI! My name is Theresa and I’m a NotPatientaholic Impatientaholic!

Actually there might be a benefit in having a buddy to call when my mind gets the better of me.

In all seriousness though, I’ve pretty much ignored anyone who has told me to be patient, including Bryan. But last night during one of my various freak outs, he pointed out that he was excited about the fact that he was getting these shots and I didn’t seem to really care at all. And it occurred to be then that I had pretty much jumped from the news that he was getting them to: “ohmygodthisisn’tgoingtoworksoIneedtostarthoardingmoneybutwecan’trightnowsotheworldisending!” in a matter of a few days. (ok not that extreme, but you get the point).

But he has a point. I’ve totally put out of my mind that the poor man is injecting himself 3x a week so that we have a shot to have our own children and I’m already freaking out that its not working (there is no proof of this, of course), because I want it and I want it like now, darn it. I don’t honestly know how I’m going to learn more patience yet so until then, patience, an ode to you: (in an ABAB format)

Somewhere inside me is more patience

Someone more relaxed and more nonchalant

I’m happy to become more patient

Just as soon as I get what I want

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

*No offense at all meant to anyone who has done a 12 step program

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